An oft visited topic in health research is the problematic nature of being ill; this core patient experience evades easy articulation, description or representation. Experiencing illness is truly embodied, encompassing emotions ranging from terror to bafflement and rage. Integrating patientsâ€™ voice into health research is important, though this goal presumes patients are able and willing to articulate or represent their experience in meaningful ways. As an experienced ethnographic researcher, I used reflexive introspection to gain an emic perspective on my own experience with cancer. Tasking myself to pay careful attention to affective elements, I used a hermeneutic structure to regularly review, reimagine and re-presence this transformational health experience. I retain sense-making categories of ill health such as the â€˜bodyâ€™ and notions of â€˜identityâ€™ but extend these beyond initial conceptions of â€˜the humanâ€™ to develop a broader, more than human, assemblage. Using myself as patient, I propose a two part identity negotiation process during a transformative illness such as cancer(Normalisation and Patient led), and offer practical recommendations to assist health professionals support and empower patients to exercise agency when crafting new identities. Key Words: Research Methods and Methodologies Key Messages 1. This method investigate the affective experience of being ill. 2. Transformative illness can have a two stage identity transition 3. Health professionals can play a role is empowering patients in their transition between identities.